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Jun. 19th, 2025 11:18 pm
dani_meows: (hobbitverse: nostalgic bilbo)
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I've been forced to take a break from making Icons due to eye and neck strain. But my muse wants nothing more than to continue.

Last night we had a glorious storm with loud booms which helped distract me from Jasper's stomach issues. Luckily he hasn't thrown up again since he threw up on my blankets last night. Poor boy we discontinued his antibiotic and so far he seems okay.

I'm listening to true crime stories, Crimes that shook Australia, which I switched to after one of the other series covered one that happened on a Florida beach that my mother and I went to often when I was a youngling. The crimes took place the year before I was born and involved younglings going off on their own.

While my parents, Father and Stepmom (mom didn't have custody of me, I visited) went about keeping me safe in a way that gave me a life long anxiety disorder. When listening to true crime sometimes I'm like Oh... There has to be away to keep younglings safe and not convince them they will end up raped and murdered behind a McDonald's! Luckily I'm 41 and so far never had a pregnancy test come up positive so it's not my problem.

One good thing about Jasper throwing up on my blanket is my blanket had to be washed and now it's fresh and clean. Ready for me to burrow my face in and smell the fresh clean laundry smell.

Whenever I listen to Australian true crime I always check to see if they found the Beaumont Children. Sadly they have not.

Nearly sixty years ago they disappeared: https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Disappearance_of_the_Beaumont_children

I want to watch tv shows but I struggle to find things that appeal to me.

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Jun. 18th, 2025 10:01 pm
dani_meows: (disney: alice in wonderland curioser)
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I'm very proud of the icons I've made so far in three days. 30 out of 100 on this table since I can put icons there I make for other contests.

https://bipolardanicats.dreamwidth.org/8485.html

I look forward to seeing what my muse makes tomorrow and the next day.

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Jun. 17th, 2025 04:02 pm
dani_meows: (hp: sirius black)
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I am so tired, not physically but mentally. I was overwhelmed even before Jasper's tests came back cancerous but I'm extra tired now.

Limiting my exposure to news has been good for me now if I can only make Tumblr go back to be being about fun and fandoms. I get why it isn't but I don't want to endlessly hear about the war in the middle east. I especially don't want to see people being cool with terrorism because they thing Jewish people are white colonists. Especially the people that I blocked because they were okay with the attacks in Washington and Colorado along with others. None of these Americans marching for peace and for the hostages to be released have anything to do with what's going on in the middle east besides being Jewish.

This plus the other political posts have killed my happy place. I just want to see pictures of my otps kissing/dancing/having shippy moments. Let me be happy please? I might make another blog where I only follow daily gif sites...

I want to curl up and read and go back to learning too.

The bluejays polished off all the food even though we filled it yesterday. Jasper is being a menace to society today which means that he's feeling better. He's been very chatty and has been trying to climb legs but he doesn't want a snack nor does he want to be held. He just wants to be a pest!

The other cats have been a little jealous at the attention Jasper has been getting but Mushi will get a taste of that care on Friday and Saturday. Before his shots he's supposed to have Gabepentin to make him docile so he won't attack the vet during his shots.

Made some icons for daily icons and am working on making a challenge as well. It was fun being creative.

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Jun. 12th, 2025 11:45 pm
dani_meows: (disney: aristocats)
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Jasper is currently resting comfortably with me checking on him frequently to make sure he doesn't scratch his eye area or need anything. In exchange he doesn't have to wear the cone.

So far he's being a real trooper about it just like last time. I really do think cats understand English and he understood my explanations of what was happening.

The opthalmologist took out everything they could and hopefully the biopsy will show the cancer not all the way through the removed tissue.

Ian gets paid in ten minutes so we don't have to worry about not having enough money for groceries/expenses after that.

The above picture is of Jasper at our vet the day we went to understand his diagnosis.

Besides Jasper I've mostly been reading fanfiction and making sure the other three cats aren't jealous of the attention Jasper's getting.

The headache I've had for days is getting better. And I'm glad the cancer cells are hopefully out of my cat.

Three weeks or so we should know for sure.

Which will put us in July. Hopefully after the anniversary of the cat who's death still feels fresh rather than almost a year ago.

Anyway Jasper is asleep and safe for now. I'm going to go back to reading fanfiction mostly about Harry Potter being raised by his godfather. Sometimes with manipulative Dumbledore... They are my weakness.

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Jun. 12th, 2025 01:24 am
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Jasper's surgery is in six hours.

I am a mess of anxiety.

We won't know until about 3 weeks or so if this time they got all of it. Last time they didn't know it was cancerous and the cancer was all the way into the margins.

I hope they can get the cancer out. I hope he'll forgive us for putting him through another surgery.

I hope he won't stop cuddling me or purring on my shoulder while nesting onto my boobs for a nap.

Fandom, wherefore art thou?

Jun. 10th, 2025 07:47 pm
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Since I'm struggling with getting my groove on with the 9-1-1 Lone Star fandom and kind of procrastinating with actually watching 9-1-1, Teen Wolf and Chicago Fire and a couple of other shows I at one point in time noted down to check out, I'm considering to dip back into some of my older fandoms like Harry Potter or Criminal Minds or even Doctor Who. Somehow, I'm just not taking the plunge.

It doesn't help that I've been hitting my limit with being social once I'm done with work for the day. I've also had a week or a bit more than that were I've been sleeping really bad. In part because I just couldn't sleep and in part because "Just one more chapter" or getting hooked on a live ticker for some College Softball games. I really should have known a whole lot better after that first time a game started at 11pm or 11:30pm and I decided to check it out for before I turn of the computer "in 15 minutes" - I ended up keeping track until the end of the games. Outside of that, I did have the problem of being dead tired between 7pm and 9pm, but having to get some stuff done (like showering and eating dinner) and 9pm has gone by, I'm past that point of tired and can't settle down again.

I have started writing the beginnings of some stories on paper though. Some Harry Potter fix its and some attempts at 9-1-1 Lone Star fics. All of them just end up running into me having to refresh my memories of canon though and that motivation has been lacking.

However, I did manage to get a couple of things on my to do list done that I've been dragging for weeks, if not months like ironing and cleaning up/organising my basement storage area which is a bit of a relief.

And a bit of a rec at the end of this post: Quantum Bang is currently in it's posting season with plenty of fix it stories across a variety of fandoms, including a lot of 9-1-1 and Harry Potter. There's also Star Wars, Star Trek, MCU, Naruto, Teen Wolf, NCIS and a couple of fandoms I haven't heard of before and some I'm probably forgetting right now. A new story goes up every 12 or 8 hours depending on if there are 2 or 3 stories scheduled a day. I'm certainly doing a lot of reading there currently.

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Jun. 9th, 2025 11:05 pm
dani_meows: (47 and Diana: I choose him/we had trust)
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I am so anxious today. My chest hurts. My tongue is numb.

I have a valid reason for my anxiety. Jasper's surgery is soon. This Thursday. I am so afraid. I regret Miso's surgery last year. Even though it was the best chance we had of him living to see six years of age. Unfortunately he was one of ten percent of cats who don't survive multiple urinary tract blockage followed by PU surgery.

This is a different thing but in some ways it's the same. Money is tight. The cat is ill and it all comes down to this treatment.

I also feel bad they have to open the healed area to reopen it. But even if they'd found it earlier we would have had to wait because cats should not go under more than once in a month.

Especially a senior boy with kidney disease.

I want to believe they will successfully remove all the melanoma cells. That they will be successful.

That a few weeks from now I'll be blogging about something random maybe my thoughts on anime or books or literally anything with Jazzy beside me like he is right now. Nori and Boo next to him. My three cat boys having a sleep while their sister plots world domination for endless supplies of ice cream and macaroni noodles.

But I'm scared. Is it my anxiety disorder? Maybe yes? Maybe no.

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Jun. 9th, 2025 01:35 am
dani_meows: (hobbitverse: I don't like green food)
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I'm finally caught up on comments!

Let's see:

Jasper has surgery on Thursday to hopefully remove the rest of the melanoma which hopefully isn't spreading elsewhere. The lab gave it a 20 percent chance of moving elsewhere. But then again the biopsy was an abundance of caution from the optometrist vet and only had a 15 percent or so chance of being cancerous.

Poor Jasper and I.

He's been in good spirits. His weight is back up but we'd like it if he'd gain a pound. He's a thin mint. He's been curling up and cuddling more since we had to evacuate in October because of hurricane Milton and that trend has continued. No hard feelings from the first surgery and that will hopefully continue with this second one.

I'm preparing for his surgery by trying to change my sleeping schedule so someone is with Jasper at all times. Ian doesn't have off work this time so it'll be a little trickier but thankfully he works from home.

Thinking about making a play pen type thing for him because he's unsteady and frail without meds but becomes extra unsteady on meds.

I got my birthday presents in the mail, and have happily enjoyed the manga for nichijou,
and looking forward to reading the two history books.

Spent some time playing dreamlight valley. Love the Cheshire cat!

I really need some new media my muse is pretty much dead.

Saw the gif of Billie Piper becoming the Doctor it's shame Doctor Who sucks and makes no sense otherwise I would be incoherent with delight. Love me some Billie Piper and in the hands of someone wanting to tell a good story you could do interesting things with that.

I think I'd pick a point and have the Timeless Child be a trap by the Master because that whole thing started the convoluted nonsense that is currently canon. Plus the Master being endlessly tortured as a child in order to have regenerations stolen from him would have made more sense. Given some depth to his crazy. A reason for him to destroy everything.

But supposedly it's cancelled.

Afraid to look at my friends page. Tumblr has been full of people lately that are cool with parroting terrorists phrases being cool with people being killed for being Jewish. I have blocked so soooo many people.

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